thoughts are poison
lives suspiciously haunted
a life that brings hundreds of messages
some vow to kill
everybody judges you
the grim truth is
violence comes from you
weak infected lunatic
don’t talk about it
fear fear their fury
erratic and unexpected
the dark heart of you is a revelation [page 68]
your enemy is you
the aggressive inward-looking one now allowed inside you
is relentless dysfunction
wings to tail
angelic above a broken world
visceral hideous fierce
far away and vulnerable
you want to fight
ardent and devout
you felt a sign of divine luck
a God-fearing hope
the stirring of a first twitch of resistance
but to battle is always more
start the rite
draw against the hidden
sometimes pliability and cunning inveigle
voices foist their plan on us
hold us back [page 69]
we the imposed on
the people who don’t get to make our own decisions
meaning left looted and full of holes
we risk living through flashes old records of thought
we remember so little
over taking all
causing mental damage
for all will experience hopelessness
the homely and innocent
tricked and made corrupt
a crooked ordeal
the fate of the girl who started telling:
a dark story emotional troubled
a final trial
hiding in dreams
body and soul
left to make peace with pain
terror has finally come to an end
of closure [page 70]
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